I am going to do a bit of a sadish post now, I just wanted to share this random thing I just found....
One day in August 2009, I went home to my empty flat, after getting off the bus, and the bus driving saying, "When is the baby due?". I was wearing a sort of neon pink floaty top, I didn't think it made me look pregnant at all, but he seemed to. My ex was out, as usual, he never used to come home, even though we had out own place.
I just felt tears coming to my eyes as I walked down behind the houses to the entrance to my flat, I was rushing trying to get back as soon as possible, I knew I was about to erupt. I got in and just cried, I was crying for HOURS AND HOURS, I just couldn't stop crying. I needed someone to hold me and tell me it would all be ok, but there was no one there, I had no friends that even lived near me to ask for help, I was literally alone! I text my Ex asked him to come home, he wouldn't.
I felt like I was the only person in the world to be going through this, I felt like it was the end, I felt like I had no choice but to end my life, but I didn't, as that would be silly. (I didn't even try or do anything, just the thought was there I felt so low, I am just trying to explain how low and bad I felt on this day).
I went on Facebook, and set up a group for my condition, I was searching for ages to see if I could find ANYONE, but i found nothing, so I posted this on a random group page, I think it was called Intersex, but I had to find someone, just one person!
I also emailed AISSG, just as I felt so alone, I had never messaged them before, but I needed something to make me feel better, to make me feel like I wasn't the only person in the world, I knew there had to be other people out there, but finding them was the hard bit!
At around midnight that night I got a reply from AISSG, it felt so nice just to hear back from someone.
Here is the email I originally sent!
Hello my name is Imogen Callaway i am 19 years old, i live in cornwall, i was diagnosed just under 2 years ago, i feel so alone and need someone to talk to, anyone thats close to my age, i lost all my friends because i thought i could trust them, and now ive only got my boyfriend, i feel so alone, i have no one to talk to, is there anyone that can help?
Thank you so much i just hope i can get someone to talk to???
Now I am obviously a lot better, I have never felt that low ever again, I just saw that picture and wanted to share with you my little story!
Have a nice Thursday!
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